So, I mentioned this in my last blog post, but the last couple weeks, it is something that has been crowding my mind and my prayers. I think about it constantly and I really don't like it consuming my thoughts so much! The thing I am talking about is relationships. I feel like I talk about this a lot, but I just kind of want to talk it out and then be done with it. :) So, recently A LOT of my friends around my age have been getting engaged, married and having kids. Holy moly. I have really only ever been on one date in my whole life. So, saying that and seeing them is super hard for me. I am so excited for them and I love they they have found that one that God has planned for them, but I have found myself a little bitter on the inside. I hate doing this. I need to be excited for them 100%. So, the last couple of weeks, I have been praying a lot more about my future husband. I have been trying to pray about where he is, when I will meet him and just for him day to day that God blesses him. I have no idea who this guy is, but I can tell you that I am so excited. I have also made it a point to make it stop consuming my every thought. I can't let it do that because then I start thinking about myself and why I don't have a boyfriend and that leads to my past of absolutely NO self confidence and then that makes me feel like poop. So, I am kind of changing a couple things at the beginning of the new year. I am trying to lose weight and make myself healthier and I am also trying to be super duper patient with God on the guy subject. I am trying to make myself get over the fact that I don't have one. I am happy right now, and as much as I would absolutely love to be in a relationship, I need to stop hanging on to those thoughts and realize that I am blessed with a great life. :) I have also realized that I am very picky with the guy that I want. First and foremost, he NEEDS to yearn for the Lord. I need someone that will challenge me and grow with me in my relationship with God. That thing and then some other things have thrown up a red flag and let me know that I am picky. I am ok with that though. I don't want to just settle with a guy. Like the title says, it is time to move on. I am going to continue to pray for this wonderful guy I will someday have (hopefully) and if not, I am going to pray that God gives me peace to understand that I might not ever get that guy. The praying is hopefully will be all. I don't want to continue to cloud my thoughts with guys and thoughts of relationships. I am young, I still have a while. :) So, I am anxious to see what happens this year. 2013 will be a good year. A year full of change and growing up, but it will be good. So, sorry for spilling my guts out again. :) I guess it happens when I open this tab! I do feel better!
"Know therefore that the LORD your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations."