So, I have been really busy and a lot has been going on so I haven't really been able to write, but I have learned a lot about myself. One thing for instance, I cannot do things on my own! I need to talk to people. Now, for me, that is way harder than it looks. Don't get me wrong, I love to talk, just not to deep because I feel as if I am burdening them and making them listen. Now, I also know that isn't true, but I keep telling myself and that is one of the biggest ways the enemy gets into me. This past Sunday, I was having a pretty difficult night and i went to talk to Erika and when I was done I felt so relieved to have someone like her to talk to at 8:30 at night or anytime. =) I am blessed. On the way back to Putnam, I heard the song 'Mighty to Save' by Hillsong. The part that really stuck out to me is the part that says, "So take me as You find me, All my fears and failures, Fill my life again. I give my life to follow everything I believe in, now I surrender.
My Saviour, He can move the mountains, My God is Mighty to save, He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation, He rose and conquered the grave, Jesus conquered the grave."
I heard that and realized that I was acting ridiculous. Why won't I talk? Oy. Stupid Emotions. Whatever. ;) I am going to try my hardest to talk to people when they ask, right now, the only people I truly talk to and who truly know me are my Life Group girls and of course my mom and sister. I am not going to tell my whole life story to people now, but if they ask, I will just go a little deeper, even if it is a little weird. Thanks to everyone. =)