Oh life...

Life is crazy. I don't know where my life is heading right now. God has really been putting a lot of stuff on my heart and mind, and with that, there have been a lot and lot of tests. Oy! I am really kind of over having so many questions! In my freshman bible study last week, we did something about our old selves and our new selves. It was definitely good for me. =) It was good to see who I used to be and who I have grown (still growing) to be the Christian woman I am today. I have also had a lot of time to think. Which, as dangerous as that is, it has been good. Everyday at lunch, I sit at the park, either doing quiet time, reading 'A Praying Life' or finishing homework. That time is usually about one and a half to two hours of just me time. God has really shown me a lot through those times also. I have been able to think about life, relationships, life, school, relationships, life, my prayer life, and a lot more stuff. Even though it sounds ridiculous and repetitive, it has been so good. In girl time, we are talking about the sin in our life and accountability. It really makes you think throughout the week. Holy cow! It has been great! Erika gave us a sheet of accountability questions that really is great to look at everyday and ask yourself how you are doing on certain things. =) Also, one of test God has been continuously putting me through is a test of relationships. Not necessarily just friend relationships, but boy relationships also. It is so hard to figure out what he is doing and I just wish that I could have answers, but I am starting to realize, that even though I don't like them at all at the time, they are really building me and making me grow in ways I didn't know that i could grow in. There have just been so many instances where I feel like a relationship is going really well, and then something happens and it is just all down the toilet and Satan gets in my head and starts listing off why I don't have a boyfriend right now, or why I am lonely. This whole exercise has really made my prayer life grow. It has been great. Also, we are doing song testimonies and I chose the song "Beautiful" by Bethany Dillon. This video. It is such an amazing song and when I feel down and not liking myself anymore, I just blast this song and it just fixes everything. =) Thank you Jesus for everything.

Psalm 13:5
"But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation."